Here again
back again. while listening to Macy Gray’s unique vocal. I try…I try to say goodbye and i choked, try to walk away and i stumbled, my world crumbles when u’re not here. most played song in my playlist. she got her place, her affinity for music. how she conquered one with her voice.
big day, today? should had been but didnt make its way. wishing one was here. quite outta my mind nw. trying to calm down, insist. i knew thing’s arent going my way, often. use to it, arghhh…have to.
soulmate. next in my playlist. touched, again. it’s nw natasha’s turn. since the previous unwritten, soulmate is another of choice. sentimental. u can call it emotional. u’ll love it, i bet. no deny, piece of heart. “who doesnt long for someone to hold, who knows how to love u without being told, somebody tell me why i’m on my own, if there’s a soulmate for everyone”.
end.
Dear, it’d been months since i posted the last. i dun quite remember til now. so sorry. i thought i couldnt online at 1st but shirley brought my modem here today, n i tried. n so sad to find out actually i could. two months since my internship. haha. boring, at first.
my life in practical….tough? not quite…it’s relaxing at times. boring? yup, at first coz not knowing veryone well…but nt after tat. enjoy? ya, no doubt. n here’s a prove..i put on weight *sigh*. fun? yaya. kidding around with my colleagues, going to ktv, get to know more ppl….etc..i like it!
internship is going to end by this saturday. i bet i’ll miss all of them a lot….!!! hah, i hate this feeling, it’s killing me. but luckily will meet old frenz back then, feel bit better.
this sat..i’ll remember. we all have an appointment. farewell for me n good luck to y’all. i luv y’all in PASB!! way to go….
a good sleep
hunger for a good sleep. this is what running in my brain now. but guess what, i’m still hanging around…hehe…watching tvb drama which’s not as nice as expected. i’m trying to finish it asap so that i can concentrate on my study. my final is just around the corner. 12th of april, as what i’d heard from my friend. haha, i’m not that concern bout my exam dates. i’m just expecting yy to inform me. plz do remember to do so…yy…i depend on you.
oh ya, liang…if u do come across this post of mine. plz do not be upset. i did do my part for our mini project. try my best on it. juz trying to relax my mind with the dramas…at least for a while. i sacrificed my sleeps last few days. really busy with all the design things…pavement n structural…which i’m really bad in. and so often i fell asleep and then in just a few minutes i was back to my table to continue. terrible experience.
i read some of my old fren’s blog just now. so glad that i can keep in touch with them..at least updating my info on them…thru their blog. n mei fon…don’t worry i’d added u into my shortcut. sure i’ll visit ur blog, promise. anyway, you really update ur blog so frequent which i hope i can. will try.
the time’s 0115 now. not feeling asleep yet. maybe the caffeins are making their moves. i had a big cup of coffee just now. i guess i can stay up late tonight…oh nope, it’s morning now. try to work on my things which one of them includes updating my blog (n i’d made it, yeah!!)
gotta go back to my work. thinking of sleeping early if i could so that my mind can have a good rest. it’s loaded with too much things d, n i dun wan it to get fatigue. so everyone…good morning!!
love,
kat
也许
人一生有多少个也许
也许
你也在疑惑着 也许
我和他的千万个 也许
也许 也只是那一个 也许
也许 是因为月老的一时糊涂
又 也许 是缘分注定的一场际遇
也许 是因为月老的一心撮合
然 也许 只是缘分的一场捉弄
也许 是因为当时彼此一时坚持
又 也许 深触内心一时的感动
但。。
原来。。。
我和他的 也许
正拼凑着我和他的人生
希望。。。
我和他的 也许
继续牵引着我们的缘分
想象。。。
我和他的 也许
是否勾勒出我们的未来
太多的 也许
或 扰乱了思绪
太多的 也许
或 增加了疑虑
而 。。
你的 也许 呢？
也许 昨天的 也许
创造了你我今天的 也许
也许 你我也不过是个。。也许
dear blog,
at last i’m trying to start writing sth for u not everyday bt at least more frequent than i was b4. really sorry bout tat. nth special happens but i finished my nm homework finally which normally i only will at the very last minute….it’s really a miracle (for me *grin*).
went to kajang for satay wit jp juz nw. not as nice as i thought it would be. but quite appreciate for his effort to travel so far juz to bring me thr. release tension wor….tat’s wat he told me. how nice of him.
nw hanging in front of my lovely comp…still wondering wat to do. trouble. trouble. can anyone plz tell me how to start mgm? no idea wat to study…i know thr’s a lot. haha. still not in da mood…i guess so.
by da way, sth big going to happen tomorrow nite. hmmm…really big enuf for my sis n i. nvr experience it b4. how big…guess tat’s wat appear in ur head?? kaka…can’t really tell. juz sth which is da cause of sth.
really have to work hard tonite. wil try to. but still cant concentrate. i bet the only solution at last would be going to bed earlier. i really tat wont happen.
‘jia you’…’jia you’…..this is wat i can do to encourage myself. yeah!
love,
kat
无奈
夜深了，但我却突然好想探望我这寂寞兼孤单的部落格，对它吐吐苦水。可怜啊，正所谓‘无事不登三宝殿‘，我这会儿也是因为想发泄发泄所以才会意外的、刚好又正巧的想起它这位被遗弃得即将发霉的老朋友。如果有一天它能开口诉心声，我猜想它必定会痛斥老天的残酷、我的无情和它的无奈。好歹它也无比的尽责，哪儿也不去乖乖的待在原处，痛苦的等待。。。天青色等烟雨而我在等你。。。还真贴切。
主人我这会儿知错，真不好意思。最近真的是忙，但到头来也不晓得自己在忙些什么，所以才会很不忿，情绪起落不定。每每想在部落格写些有的没的发泄，却又起不了个头，更莫说要结尾了。每一次(也算不出几次了)都在打了几行字后又不了了之。。。还真无奈，但就是没办法的关掉电脑，躲进我小小的被窝里，整理情绪。
夜深了，望望窗外。。。一切都好黑但却无比的平静，此时此刻还真应了‘无声胜有胜’。也许是我最近变得有点多愁善感(一点罢了)，总觉得希望‘明天’能放慢它的脚步，莫太快侵蚀我此刻的宁静。也曾听过‘明天会更好’，也许吧？但无论它会不会更美好，日子总是要过的，哭笑都会是一天。
我依然很期待明天的朝阳，很期待所有人的笑脸。。。及一切的一切。
pAL
dear pal,
glad to receive ur sms yesterday. knew tat u’re all rite was really a good newz for me. at last i can clear my mind, stop thinkin how’d u been. ~~luckily~~
time really flies. we r all unaware how fast it’d be. still remember i knew u when i was in form 4. haha, we sat tables apart but still i got to know u soon. u’re such a pretty n charmin’ young gal, no wonder there’re bunches of guys chasing after u. n yet u’re oso such a sweetie.
knew u better when we’re in f5. class monitor n the assistant. hah, lots of fun we’d been thru’. remember our trip to kuching…waking up with marcus between us. great fun touring around the city n staying up 2gether til late nite talkin bout u n me. n oso wont forget the coincidence on our ic no. (i’m exactly 2 months older than u ~sigh~), thanx vincent to notify us!
going to f6. although we’re not in the same class, but still we’re close. u’re my best pal after all. recess time — a short twenty minutes was still a great time for all of us to be 2gether. u, me, wul, lhh….haha…n not forgeting mdm wong, our dearest. without her, i bet we’d not have such fun. thanx mdm wong, miss u lot here.
the science lab preparing room. yah…it’s our place. for us to gather round n bitching bout every little things. hh wit his funny attitude n irresistable jokes. n still remember how we teased on wul. he’s such a good-tempered guy. but still thanx him for bringing us all tat delicious n yummy ice-cream. haha, i can still recall how all of us dig on it.
remember? our slumber parties. wit tsc n jkjj. i really enjoyed tat. n so sorry i’d always been the 1st person to get asleep. haha. by da way, on my bd…the funny pics we took. the cigar. yeah, tat’s it inside da pics. still kept it at my house.
dear, u’re always thr to listen to my thoughts. my feelings. maybe sometimes things aren’t going as we want it to be. but dun worry, i’m here for u. i know u have bigger responsibilities now. u need to take care all sorts of things. sometimes i really hope tat i can help. even juz a little bit.
so take care dear. although we’re all grown up now, we can still be close. although we’re far apart, u’re still in my mind. by da way, received ur call juz now. glad to hear from u n i know u made the right decision. happy for u n oso tat someone thr. miss u so much.
love
kat
trip to bkt tinggi
dear blog,
went to bkt tinggi yesterday with my dearest sis, dad n auntie. enjoyed a great day thr. n me n my sis took lots of pics…almost 200++ juz for da two of us. haha. havin two cameras is really a good thing. my sis n i wit our photography session while my dad busy with his. my childish dad busy taking photos of insects, plants n etc. i bet he’d juz discover his talent. looking at my dad then only i knew y i tend to be stupid sometimes..haha inherited from him.
by da way, i get to wear kimono. forced by my sis but luckily she did. tried on a red one coz few choices only. n my sis tried on too. both of us busy taking photos with our kimonos on. n i took a lot of funny pics. now only i know how difficult life is for a japanese woman, luckily i’m not. the hardest thing in wearing a kimono is tat u gotta walked slow so tat u wont miss ur steps. n arggh~~…it’s a nightmare for me. i was still running here n thr cz i’m not tat ‘lady’…plz~~.
besides good memories, here’s a bad one too in the botanical garden. sh*t…i missed my step while climbing up the stairs. n thr went my buttocks kissing da ground. tat’s really hurts. however more terrible was to have a bad sis, who laughed all the way n kept teasing me bout da incident. but wat to do, tat’s my sis. careful wit ur buttocks next time, erica!
but everything juz going smooth yesterday despite the rain which poured down around 12 sth. really enjoyed my day. enjoyed great fun taking pics. great outing wit my lovely dad. miss u all lots now.
love,
kat
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am i acting normal?
when things aren’t going well
the first thing i think of is you
you’re there
when i’m in need
with juz a simple ‘anything, dear?’
am i acting normal?
when things are going my way
i didn’t even thought of you
i’m not there
when you’re in need
instead of a ‘anything, dear?’
I sent you a busy tone
am i acting normal?
after so much things i did to you
only now I realized
you came for me when I needed you
…I turned around when you needed me
am I acting normal?
for thinking that I’m not acting normal
i’m just a silly girl being ego
in loving u more than you do
i’m just a greedy girl being selfish
in giving u all my love
am I acting normal?
and can I ask…
are you acting normal?
p/s: i like the way u’re
